My last saturday in singapore...

It was a bright and sunny Saturday morning in Singapore and as usual.. I was lazy and couldn't bother to get my ass out of the house. Then only I realise that today is going to be the last saturday I have in Singapore before I pack everything and go back HOME for good! I know I'm gonna miss Singapore.. the cleanliness, the safety, the convenience of public transport... Therefore, I decided to head out to Vivo City, the so called biggest shopping mall in this small little island.

I used to love coming down to this shopping mall because they have most of the major brands that I fancy. But as time pass, the crowd just getting bigger and bigger, especially weekends like today. It was insane! The moment I come out from the MRT (the train system), I dare not stop and stare, or else I will be one of the stampede victims.

There were so much frustrations I encoutered today:

1. Every shop is filled with people.. You wanna try something, you got to Q up for the changing rooms.. You wanna pay for something, you got to Q up for the cashier as well! You wanna go wee wee, you got to Q up for the restrooms as well!

2. Just getting a place in Starbucks/Gloria Jeans/Ben & Jerrys or any cafes is impossible too. Place is filled with family or couples.. I was abit self concious to go in alone and just sit there and relax.. I would do that if it was a weekday...or i'm not alone..

3. The things that caught my attention were mostly MADE IN CHINA! So, no point for me to buy coz I will be living in China soon enough.. why pay more right? (control control.. self control is important.. save for the wedding!!!)

But I encountered this new shop that wasn't there the last time I went to Vivo. It's very interesting and attracted many customers.

the FRUIT PARADISE CAFE.. originated from Tokyo..

One thing i noticed, Singaporeans love anything from Japan.. ANYTHING!

The shop basically sells fresh fruit tarts like the picture above.. It looks so yummy but the price is not that yummy to the pocket though..

It was havoc in the cafe but I managed to take away 3 different slices of their tarts for myself and my housemates. It was really good but abit too pricey for my liking.

Anyway, its just a once in a while thing.. So it was ok.. hopefully I can find this in Malaysia or Shanghai to satisfy my sweet tooth once in a blue moon..

Overall, my last saturday in Singapore was quite a pleasant one. Managed to get some nice necklace for myself and my sisters and some affordable tops. If given the choice, I wouldn't wanna go out on weekends in Singapore ever again.. Its just too scarry!

Side track: Pepsi has this huge campaign/advertisement at the MRT station and I think its really interesting...

p/s: So far, I have a big box of magazines, 1 box of my new unused facial and body products, 2 big boxes of winter clothes and dresses/skirts.. And i still got ALOT that I havent touch yet.. How on earth am i going to bring back EVERYTHING back to MALAYSIA la???????????????

bag bag bag...

I AM SO IN LOVE WITH MY NEW MICHAEL KORS BAG I BOUGHT FROM HOUSTON'S PREMIUM FACTORY OUTLET.. WEEEE......................

P/S: can't wait to go back singapore tomorrow coz i get to see my darling!!! weeee.......

the resurraction of blog..

Time flies and before u know it.. U have abandoned your blog (filled with spidey webs) for that long a time! Its crazy..

Its good friday today and I'm stuck in Houston, texas.. Its so laid back here, everything seems to be on a slow pace compared to to Japan, Singapore or even San Francisco. The land they have is so abundant, their roads are so wide and my hotel room is so big (yet empty). And I missed their annual Rodeo carnival just by one day! ARGH!!

Flying life has been pretty good for me. I felt blessed to be 'awarded' with reasonable rosters every month compared to most of the seniors above me that claims to always get 'shitty flights' (pardon my 'french') every time I ask 'So, how's yr roster eh?'. Many may look at my high-flying career as something really cool.. But, trust me, its not fun once u get your hand on it. Just like cheesecake! No matter how awesome sinfully rich and tasty a cheesecake is, u just can't have it everyday coz eventually u will get sick of it and will rush to the toilet to puke just by the sight of it after 3 days of cheesecakes.

Oh, dont get me wrong people (if there are still living beings reading my blog, that is).. I ain't complaining here.. the money we (cabin crew) earn is pretty good (especially if i convert back to RM.. DROOLS..) and the hotel we stay is usually 5-stars related but there's always a down side in everything we do or have.. Even LOVE. This is the moment where i'm totally homesick and lovesick and buddy-sick. The loneliness we feel sometimes facing the big hotel room generously given by our company is beyond bearable. I'm not sure about other airlines but for my company, we have this system that we will usually be rostered to fly with different people on every of our flights. Call yourself lucky if you are rostered to fly with your friend. So, look at my 'happy pictures' i posted on FB (its short for facebook, where have u been alien?)whenever i travel around the world, the 'happiness' is short lived and most times, I can't remember the names of the people on the pictures after 2-3 months if they are not under my FB so called 'friends' list.

It is always this time where insecurity will struck me....not so much of my family because I know better than anyone, my family will NEVER abandon me no matter what and we usually try our best to stay connected and close-knitted. Its always about my long distant relationship with my one and only workaholic boyfriend (BF). Ok, my malaysia-singapore (and around the world) whirlwind romance is not as bad as some malaysia-UK romance but it is bad enough for me already. So, in order to not let myself think so much, I shall go to the nearest factory outlet here later to give myself a big massive shopping therapy treat.. muahahahaha...

shall update my prized possesions if I feel like it... (and if i can get anything)

p/s: Feel good to be able 'pen' down my thoughts here again.. i hope I will be consistent...

holiday..

Its 2.34am in the morning now and here I am, in the comfort of my own home, eating my instant Mee Goreng-Sambal Prawn flavour and updating my yet-again-abandoned blog.. Talking bout having life..hahaha..

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This is one huge problem about me, I get hungry very fast and I can't sleep when I'm hungry.. Ya, I know darn well that eating after midnight and before u sleep is a big NO NO for someone who needs to fit into her tiny little kebaya uniform but I get very cranky when I can't sleep too.. So, instead of rolling from left to right on my small single bed, I decided bravely to storm down my home's kitchen and satisfy my cravings for instant noodles..

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And now i'm a Happy big girl.. coz i'm no longer hungry.. hahaha..

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I just watched UP- the latest animation movie from PIXAR and it was all VERY RIDICULOUS.. from the beginning to the end.. BUT, I enjoyed it.. VERY MUCH.. Although it was really ridiculous and illogic, PIXAR has their own way to deliver a warm touching message to the people.. I went and watch with my family and all 5 of us had such a great laugh.. Its been some time as well since we went for a movie togehter.. And I'm glad that my dad was the one who insisted to watch this movie in the cinema due to all the good reviews he read from the various resources.. One thing really cute about my dad is that, he relies heavilly on the reviews of the magazines or newspaper he reads.. If the review is good, he will only consider to watch that particular movie.. If its not good, he will gladly write a list for me to buy the pirated DVDs from Shanghai.. (sshh... dont tell MSIA government that we are supporting piracy.. coz i'm sure U do too..)

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p/s: My mum reads my blog.. yes.. nowadays, our parents are getting more IN man.. dont play play.. and the best part is, she reads from my 1st entry to my last (talking bout my biggest fan).. and my sisters' blogs are not spared too.. hahahah..

I GOT A NEW LOVER...

I Have a new Lover..

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Not A boyfriend...

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But a NEW LOVER..

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A lover that will stick with me faithfully no matter what

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A lover that can be turned on anytime

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A lover that will make me happy.. Very very happy..

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Oh my WHITE LOVER..

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My new WHITE Nintendo DS..

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HAHAHAHAHA

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What were u thinking?

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p/s: Its been more than 1 week.. I think i'm moving on well.. I think I am.. this is the hardest breakup ever..

The young and innocent times..

So many things have happened recently that I can't help but to miss my young, naive, innocent and maybe stupid times when I was still a toddler that barely knows how to spell AEROPLANE.. Here are some of the thoughts that used to irritate me so much that now I find myself laughing..

- I used to think traffic lights have this invisible barrier to block cars from moving whenever they turn red.. I just dont understand why all cars stop when the light turns red.. SO powerful?

- I thought cats are female and dogs are male.. they make out and make more cats and dogs..

- I used to thought that Malaysia is the world! The sky seems to end at certain point and if I were to ask papa to drive me till the end of Malaysia, I can touch the bottom of the sky.. Yeepee!

- I wished Santa Claus was real coz papa mama can't afford the toys I wanted so much..

- I always worried that the sun, moon and stars will drop on me one day.. coz.. there's nothing attached to them and they are just floating..

- I always picture heaven to be somewhere super fun.. with loads of sinful food for you to eat and tonnes of toys for u to play..

- I really thought DORAEMON was real at one point! And hoped that he will come out from any drawers in my house and lend me all those cool gadgets..

- I seriously think that POWER RANGERS and ULTRAMAN are real too.. And just dont understand why those monsters only attack this place call USA and Japan only.. why they never appear in malaysia and say hi to me.. coz i really wanna meet Power Rangers..

Ya, those are just some of the stupid naive things I thought way back then.. Laugh la.. laugh!!

p/s: I will be going to ABU DHABI again next month.. this is gonna be my 3rd time man!!! wahaha... maybe i should just find a rich man there to date.. since I go there so often.. and its always 6-8 days stay.. JUST KIDDING!!! I like pure klang meat ok!!!

Christmas is coming..

I have 3 trips to update yet I do not have the 'time' to do it.. Well, we humans always like to use 'I dont have time' as the best excuse in the world to procastinate.. I'm one of them..

Christmas is coming.. As everybody is aware...

Especially when you are living in this tiny little island called Singapore where Christmas is like the 'IT' thing for the islanders to celebrate.. Malaysians are well-aware that if you do not have money to go to Europe to feel Christmas, then Singapore is the best and cheapest and nearest option you can go to.. However, this might not be a good thing for certain type of people.. Those moody, home-sick, lonely girls where all they wish for this christmas is to be with their family..

I have no complains about my job.. I think I kindda like my job.. ALOT.. I get to travel, I get to see loads of things where most people are not able to at my age.. The working time is pretty short and I get off days after every trip! But, there's always something you have to sacrifice in order to get certain 'Luxury'.. Just like some people I know, they sacrifice good food outstation in order to buy a 'LV' at the end of the month.. They sacrifice the luxury of taking taxi to work in order to save money to be spent outstation.. As for me, I sacrifice too much of the time with my family and friends to have this job.. I know this job pays me fairly well compared to most jobs I will get back in Malaysia but I miss home.. I miss going back to my REAL home sweet home after my work and just sit down and relax with my family in the living hall watching 'The Nanny'.. I miss mummy calling me and telling me what she's going to cook for dinner in order to tempt me not to go out with my friends at night.. I miss daddy's sarcastic humour everytime we chat while we watch tv.. I miss those small little chats every night before sleep with my 2 dearest sisters.. AND.. I miss all those random calls and sms-es where my friends will just ask me out for a mamak..

As we get closer to Christmas.. I miss home even more.. This will be the first time I'm so far away from HOME for the most important event in the SOO family of the year.. Christmas meant so much to me.. Its more than going to church to celebrate Jesus' birth, its more than singing Christmas Carols... Its the together-ness with your love ones.. I'm assigned to fly to Korea then to San francisco starting from Christmas Eve.. Many told me to look to the brighter side as I will experience a total different Christmas this year and I get to shop till I drop at the streets of San Francisco on Boxing day.. Guess theres always the bright side and a dark side of everything.. A senior once told me, once you decided to step into this line, be ready to be away from your family during BIG events.. its normal.. But the good news is.. My family will be down to celebrate a very early Birthday and Christmas with me next weekend after I come back from Amsterdam!! WEEE.....

Oh man.. I'm feeling so lonely.. I have an off day on my Birthday itself but what to do? I hope I get to meet Canna as she will be in singapore that time.. All I want for my birthday is NOT TO BE LONELY.. For the record, I'm not desperate for a boyfriend, I just want friends to be around.. I tend to get too EMO when I'm alone during my big day.. Getting older and all alone.. how sad........

p/s: I'll be going Amsterdam, Netherland next tuesday.. I checked the weather forecast, and it is like -1 degree celsius!!! I dont know whether I can stand the cold or not.. I'm not a cold person.. I'm a hot person!!!!

Random

The stupid quite-new aircon in my room is not working for 2 days already!!!!!! Dont know why i can't on it and it keeps blinking on the 'Timer' bar and the mechanic is only coming tomorrow afternoon to fix it which I have to report for work at the same time.. Talking bout good timing..

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AND AND AND.. I have 1 big pimple on my nose again!!! Why I always have a pimple on my nose.. So annoying...

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I miss home.. I really do.. Travelling is fun but tiring as well.. I miss mum's cooking.. I miss the soup she boils.. I miss mamak session.. I miss watching movies in cinema..

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p/s: Going to New Delhi, India tomorrow!! I heard Indian passengers have alot of requests and hard to please.. Hope I will not meet those..

Not looking forward..

I'm going to work on a flight to Manchester in few hours time.. I'm looking forward for the job but not really looking forward to stay there for 2 nights.. y? Because I just used almost s$300 to change for 115 pounds!! Why Pound has to be so big and strong all the time? How to survive 2 nights without going shopping in Manchester? And how to survive shopping when you only have 115 embarrasing Pounds in your pocket? I think i only can buy yogurt and eat in the hotel.. or order McD.. wait.. Mac Donalds.. Must speak proper english.. or perhaps I can find Tesco and buy English Bread with English Tea.. Why Pound has to be so strong? Argh.....

P/s: I'm going back to Klang after my manchester flight!! yeepee!!! Will be taking bus from Singapore on Thursday (23.10.08) evening and will reach klang at midnight.. Will be there till Sunday morning.. Pls meet me ya!!! Can't wait to see all of you..

argh...

What makes u frustrated and angry?

U go into TOPSHOP.. u saw them selling lycra plain t-shirts in various colours and its 2 for $39.. U pick it up, u think its nice and pretty reasonable, u choose a black n a blue one and u pay...

Then u step into SAMUEL & KEVIN, u saw them selling the almost-same-like-TOPSHOP lycra t-shirts and its 2 for $16 only.. U frustrated and angry or not?

In order to make myself not so frustrated and angry, I pick a white and red one and pay.. And now, i'm comforted.. and promise to myself that I will not buy any plain t-shirts or singlets in TOPSHOP anymore!!!!

So now I have a black, white, blue and red plain t-shirts.. Hooray to queen Pamela..

tagged.. again!

Sunday.. my last Sunday in Malaysia before I leave.. It was full of sweetness and can I say Love? Many said their goodbyes to me knowing they will not be able to see me anymore after this day and that itself makes me tearful in the eye.. Hugs were even harder to give because the warmth I can feel makes me even more reluctant to go.. The Royal Rangers Expedition Boys and Girls are super sweet to me today (incredibly), except for some monkeys that are LACK OF ATTENTION trying to make me remember them even when I'm in Singapore and yes, their missions accomplished.. Nicholas Shim, Bryan Ong and the Monkiest of All JOSHUA LIM.. Despite all their sarcasm and butt-worthy-to-be smacked acts, they are still adorable and really make this day memorable.. THE SAD PART IS.. my favourite Cyber Cafe took out more than half of their computers for some stupid match and caused all of us have no chance to play CS.. CRAP.. its supposed to be my 'farewell CS' with the bunch.. how sad.. Y la? Y?

The 2 musketeers.. Bryan, Nicholas and monkey Joshua..

However, in the midst of my busy schedule, I am forced by Mr Bryan Ong to do yet another tag that is almost similar to the one I did before.. But this time, the questions are even more lame..

1. If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be? Erm.. Too bad.. HE doesn't know how to appreciate me.. *ego speaking* Of course I'll be hiding at a corner of the room and cry like there's no tomorrow and not forgetting dumping that stupid guy through phone.. coz I wouldn't wanna embarrass myself in the public..

2. If you can have a dream to come true, what would it be?I wish that I can work for SIA but can stay in Klang.. Dont need to go through all the packing hassle and all the tearful hugs and goodbyes..

3. Whose butt would you like to kick? For now, of course I would love to kick Joshua Lim's Butt..

4. What are the THINGS you can't live without? Handphone, computer, water and my bag..

5. What is a Must in a partner? MY PARTNER MUST BE TALL, AVERAGE LOOKING, AMBITUOUS AND HARDWORKING, RESPECTFUL TOWARDS HIS PARENTS, GOD-FREARING, KIND, SWEET, SENSITIVE, DOES NOT COMPLAIN WHEN I GO AIMLESS SHOPPING, FRIENDLY AND IF HE'S ROMANTIC, THAT'S DEFINITELY A BONUS!!

6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone? In my selfish human context, Being loved by someone is definitely something more blessed!!! I'm very very blessed..

7. How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love? Erm.. I don't intend to wait for anyone.. Its either u come and u go.. Its a realistic world darling..

8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do? Erm, look for my sisters or friends to whine to.. then roll some tears down then start my next day all fresh and happy.. Hello, its not the end of the world.. I'm sure there are better men out there..

9. Is there anything that has made you extremely happy? A simple call from someone just to tell me how much he misses me, makes me super happy.. Oh, someone got me a stalk of nicely-packed rose last week (out of kindness and no intentions), makes me super happy..

10. What takes you down the fastest? takes me down the fastest? what u mean?

11. How would you see yourself in ten years time?I can't predict future.. but hopefully and prayerfully, I will be at least married to someone (of the above stated criterias) by then.. and of course, successful in my career or business.. I'm not a full-time housewife material..

12. Who is currently the most important people to you?My family, frens and someone...

13. What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is? He is a gentle giant with sarcastic yet funny remarks but kind at heart..

14. Would you rather be single and rich or married but poor? can't it be Married and rich at the same time.. Paling benci this type of question 1.. We as humans must be optimistic!!

15. What's the first thing you do when you wake up? Curse my alarm clock for making so much noise..

16. Would you give all in a relationship? If that person is someone that I know loves me so much that is willing to sacrifice some of his time just to be with me and cares for me more than I care for myself, y not? You have to give and take in a relationship..

17. If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, who would you pick? You have to give me names in order for me to answer.. Lets say if its Orlando Bloom or Johny Depp, I will rather choose Orlando Bloom coz he's younger and hotter.. and less complicated..

18. What type of people do you hate? I dont hate people.. I just dislike people that are not puntual for the appointments they make with me.. People that say something and does another thing.. and bla bla bla..

Lastly, I would like to show you guys something that might cause you nightmares.. If you are a fan of spooky movies or those scarry shows, you may schroll down.. But if you are those weak at heart, pls stop schrolling..

Oops.. you schrolled too fast.. I apologize for bringing pain into your life after showing this pic.. hahaha.. (Joshua, I told you i will get back to you.. ) Have an awesome week ahead all of you!! Dont you dare forget me k!! Keep in touch.. Use any form of technology that is available to get in touch with me k.. I will be lonely in Singapore..

p/s: I never know packing my own stuff can be so mind-blowing and super tiring.. anyone wants to help?

exercise

Feeling rather fat and ugly lately..

Fat = Ate too much due to good mood, out to catch up with friends too much and it is a natural symptom of every girl to complain that she's fat even though she's not..But for my case, I have put on a little weight..



Ugly = Red allergy-like spots appeared on the cheeks on my face lately + the failed-squeezed pimple scar on my nose which is really irritating me now..


I decided to challenge myself with my house's threadmill while watching Friends in the living hall with the motivation of running + walking on it for 1 hour.. But I FAILED.. miserably.. in less than 15 mins, i was lying on the sofa giving up and both eyes staring at the TV laughing at Joey's lame joke.. Looks like the only way for me to really RUN is when my friends pull me to Taman Rakyat to run and really sweat like mad.. I wont be able to give up half way like how I did at home.. I seriously need to get my body toned up before I go to singapore.. Don't wanna look like orang kampung among the other hot 'contestants' when I start my training there..



Why is my butt so big all the time? ARGH...



p/s: I still haven't watch IRON MAN!!! Shawn, where is the DVD you owe me!!!!!

What happened?

Myanmar is HIT by Cyclone.. the govenrment just accepted help from other countries yesterday after the people suffered for more than few weeks already..

China is hit by the worse earthquake ever and there are so many people still not found after 2 weeks.. even if they survived the earthquake, they might die of thirst of hunger..

People die of hunger in Africa.. but people die of Obesity in America.. isn't it ironic?

Tun Dr Mahathir quits UMNO.. He's so against Pak Lah that he's willing to quit UMNO after so long... Wonder what will happen to our govenrment in the future with so much drama in the parliament and UMNO..

Chelsea lost to Man U for 1 penalty kick.. so unfair.. But football remains football.. Can't change the way they score..

David Cook is crowned the American Idol.. How can? David Archuletta was the better performer during the finale.. everybody agrees.. So what if he only sings ballads? That shows he knows how to choose songs that are most suitable for him.. He's so adorable and sweet.. he deserves to win.. not that Cook is not qualified.. He's quite good too.. but he did not performed up to the expectation on finale and his style is so Chris Daughtry..

WHATS WRONG WITH THE WORLD WE ARE LIVING IN NOW???

p/s: So many movies to watch so little time and money.. who's going for any movies?

Random..

OMG.. (stands for Oh My Goodness in my case..) I've heard of our previous Prime Minister, Tun Dr Mahathir Mohd starting up his own blog since blogging has been such a trendy thing that almost everyone is doing.. But I haven't got the time to really look at it and don't really know what is his site's name.. When I was browsing through one of my friend's blog, I happen to see the link he has created to Tun's blog, so i click on it.. (just like what you will do later to the below add:

http://www.chedet.com/

It is pretty inspiring I can say.. Ever since I was eligible to vote for the last election, I have been quite occupied with the game of politics.. It is quite interesting to see those people in the cabinet 'pulling each other's hair' and 'cat-fighting' just to gain 'power' and support of the fellow normal people.. I always respect Tun and although he has confessed that Mr Anwar was innocent when Tun put him in jail, I still respect him for having the guts to confess in front of the nation. He's still a human after all.. and no humans are perfect.. Only God is perfect, my dear.. He has brought this nation to a level where we are now and lead this nation to the world of technology.. I believe he has done and performed well throughout his service as our Prime Minister.. Tun Dr Mahathir, I SALUTE YOU!!! (like la he will ever bother to read my stupid blog).. Anyway, if you have the time, have a look at the blog and you will be blown away.. It will help you to improve your malay too..

Oh, I always wanna ask all my friends this but I'm too shy to ask.. so, i decided to ask here and if you wanna comment, you know how to reach me or leave your piece of mind at this blog.. well.. the question is.. *heart pumping*.. 'doop! doop! ... doop! doop!..'

I look better with specs or without specs?

ok, i know its super lame but some people commented that I looked much better without specs but i prefer wearing specs because it has the funky attitude and it helps to cover my dark circle!!! I just love wearing specs and I've collected 3 different specs for my own use already!! I just want to know what you guys think.. la..

See what i meant? Even my eyes look much bigger...

And without specs, I look like a plain normal boring Jane who really needs make-up and my eyes are so tiny.. The specs mark on my nose is so visible.. and my eyes look like they need serious beauty sleep and eye masks!! CRAP!! You be the judge la..

p/s: Remember to read Tun Dr Mahathir's Blog k!!! Its so cool.. and dont forget to read those long long long comments the people have left.. It is so interesting..

Mixed up..

Its been awhile since I last updated my blog.. Many things happened and many lessons i've learned. I'm sure everyone of us had heard of 'Life is never easy' in any part of our life as a human.. Choices are hard to make and right decisions are even harder to make.. Happiness is always easy to share with people around you but sadness is easier to consume alone in the dark corner of your house.. There are few things that are running in my head right now.. and here goes:

*the below statements are purely based on Pamela's opinions and not biased to any party nor person (or even race..even though she's pure chinese) in this world. Should you take these seriously and wanna sue me, you are really wasting your time, money and effort.. Go do some charity.. better for your soul..

- Was watching news on TV with my parents while having our dinner (mum's sambal fried bihun and peanut soup..Heavenly..) and its seems that I have missed out alot on our interesting Parliament's news.. Its so interesting that I just have to share it here..

I dont understand why certain people that (so called) deserve the seat in the parliament have such bad communication skills and observation talent after so many incidents (like the 'Keris' case and 'Bocor' case). I think kids in Primary school will know how to talk better than them!! How on earth is a man on a wheel chair going to stand up to swear in front of the parliament when he's actually on a wheel chair? People depend on wheelchairs for a reason you know.. they just purely can't walk!!! Use your brain to think or (if u can't find your brain) use your eyes to see.. You think Uncle Karpal love to depend on a wheelchair because he doesn't need to walk and he can wheel around in the park for fun? Respect la sikit!!!

- There's this one statement that Uncle Karpal made towards the Sultan of Perak that caused a whirlwind in the politic arena. Just tonight itself in the news, there's already 3 police reports filed against Uncle Karpal. Its sad that those people that worked for Malaysia in the same 'office' can't get along due to the game of power and authority. I know they are of different parties but do you have to scratch each other's back like that to create comedy for the others in the world to see and laugh at? What happen to freedom of speech? What Uncle Karpal said is not really wrong in law actually.. Those of the different party as Uncle Karpal just can't wait to get him down.. Come on man.. give him a break!! The more they do these kind of small petty things towards him, the more supporters Uncle Karpal is going to get..

- Poor Raja Petra (famed politic blogger that IVAN KOK is crazy about) was put into jail because he stated (in his blog) that the murderer(S) of Altantuya's (pardon me if I got the name wrong) case should go to hell.. Hello.. that's his blog.. he has the right to put anything he wants!! Plus.. in most religions, murderers go to hell what.. unless they repented or something.. but its understood.. I have no idea who on earth in our small land can put someone into jail just like that.. might be the most suspected person that is involved la.. there's this one saying in BM that i really like, 'Siapa Makan Cili, Dia rasa pedas' (translation: Whoever that eats chili, he/she feels spicy) Seriously, I just feel that, all these politically powerful people should pay more attention on other serious matters rather than all these ant small things..

Ok.. politics aside..

- Everything is rising.. Water level of the sea.. Ego and pride of humans.. Price.. expecially.. except our salary.. isn't that sad..

- Almost all my friends told me that Iron Man is 'DAMM GOOD'.. I haven't watch!! Don't tell me the story.. (though the story is pretty predictable like any other superhero movies)I will watch soon.. anyone wants to date me? *Puppy Eyes*

- Love is so powerfull and unmeasurable.. I just hate it when things involved love or anything related to it..

Today is a boring day.. but tomorrow will be much better..

P/s: Things that look really bad right now might not be that bad in the future.. Be patient and never give up..

Dont understand..

I was on my way for a medical check-up in KL (near masjid jamek) taking public transport and thanks to my dearest colleague who is willing to drop me at Kelana Jaya LRT station.. and make me realise alot of things..

I don't understand:

-Why some dumb drivers don't even wanna let other people from other direction to move even though he can't move further front.. (these type of drivers really drive me nuts!!) And when you honk them, they will just look in front pretending they are dumb.. stupid people..

-Why klang can be so jam all the time!!! Now even worse, if you are coming from Port Klang to Klang, the bridge there will be jam packed with impatient nutty drivers.. From 3 lanes, they cut to 2 lanes.. I really hope those contruction workers know what they are doing.. I bet the bridge is flooded with CURSES from all drivers..

-Why men nowadays are so not gentleman!! When i was walking out from the LRT, there's this stupid AH BENG that just pushed me away and step on my shoe.. and dont even bother to apologize.. he just look forward and pushes his way out of the LRT.. makes me wanna curse him so much..

-Why doctors smoke in their clinic's toilet.. Hello doctor, toilets are for you to do your small and big business (and whatever that is in between like 'lao sai') but its not meant for you to take advantage on it!! Plus, you are a doctor for goodness sake!! You guys are the ones that always advice people not to smoke because its bad for health.. Looks like you need to go back to school for refreshment class!!! I was the unlucky one that have to go into the toilet after him (because i need to past urine for test) and the smoke was just unbearable..

- Why our KTM take so long to come!!! Government always encourage us to take public trnasport but it is so time consuming!! I have no complains for LRT but our KTM service really.. well.. sucks after so many years.. Plus, the KTM station at KL central was pretty hot!!! I miss my car so much at that time.. Waited like almost half and hour for the train to arrive.. Learn from our neighbour man!!

It wasn't the most pleasent day I have ever encounter and my temperature was really boiling after so many things.. It just add up into the 'hot' factor in me.. haha.. There are other more 'WHYs' I have but I'm just too lazy to list them down.. Have a good weekend everyone.. Hope you guys wont have such a suck-y day like me..

P/s: The forbidden kingdom was really a dissapointment.. I really had high expectation on this movie because 2 of my favourite actors are in there.. JET LI AND JACKIE CHAN.. Don't play play.. but the plot was bad.. the effect wasn't that good and the whole story was quite a mess.. compared to other shows they acted before..Plus.. since when Chinese in CHINA those days know how to speak ENGLISH? You tell me la... Even the chinese GOD in heaven also can speak ENGLISH wei..

Admitted to 'hospital'..

Don't worry.. its not me who is admitted to 'hospital'.. Its my house modem.. 'Kaput' after thunder rain with lightnings.. We didn't even on the switch!! Don't know how it damages my modem also.. Thank god its still under warranty, so we have to send to the shop for repair, which has to send the modem to the factory for repair. According to the shop's assistant, it will take almost a month.. CRAP!!! How to live without internet connection at home for one month!!! Me and my sisters were soooooooooooooooo dissapointed.. So, anyone who has an additional modem that can spare us for at least one month, pls pls pls pls call me.. save us from the disconnected world... (i'm using my company's connection.. =P Dont tell anyone k.. )

Other than that, my family's camera also went 'kaput'.. I think too much work has been done by that poor 'fella'.. So, it somehow went into 'depression' and refuses to work for us anymore.. we can't on it and its just not working.. So, we have to send back to the shop to repair.. and guess what, also 1 month!! I feel like i'm in a stone-age world without internet connection and camera.. Thank god my Handphone is working and I've been taking care of it pretty well.. Thank God for TV as well for the 24-7 entertainment.. HAhaha..

My 'skin desease' (allergy which I still dont know what i'm allergy to) is recovering.. (really slow) I have been pure vegetarian for almost 1 week now due to the 2nd attack which causes more ithchiness and darker red spots on all over my body!!! My body look like some aliens that came from Pluto become it has a rough surface and so many spots together.. (you wouldn't wanna see it..) These are the things I cannot eat or do for at least one month or 2 until my spots are completely gone:

- No Meat (mutton, lamb-chop, beef, pork.. watever you can find in the western menu or Nasi Kandar Place)
- No Chicken/ eggs (I haven't touched chicken or eggs for the past 3 weeks!! I missed it so much.. I even forgotten how 'lala jian' taste like.. I never crave for chicken so much in my entire life till now!)
- No Seafood (including my all time favourite-FISH!!! even those tiny little Ikan bilis in our Nasi Lemak also forbidden.. =( )
- No kacang/ bean stuff (I love peanut butter and I love kacang.. i'm goin Nuts!)
- No wine/ Alcohol (this 1 no problem.. )
- No cheese (means no cheese back rice, no sandwich, no burgers!!! what is life without cheese?)
- Soya milk and soya products (no soya beans during makan sessions in restaurants and even the innocent looking TOFU also i can't touch!!!)
- No outdoor (to prevent me from sweating because sweat will trigger itchiness)
- No pets (no touching my 'Princess' for at least 2 weeks until most of the spots are gone)
- No swimming
- No Housework

The best part is only and ONLY 'No housework' part.. the rest.. its like putting me in living hell.. You might laugh at me and thinking that I'm just over-reacting.. Try follow my diet as above (all vegetable) and see how long you can last!!! But, look at the bright side, it helps to de-tox my body and now I actually felt more healthy.. I'm even seeing some improvement in my overall apperance.. But being forced to change from a Major Carnivor to a full time pure Vegetarian is really a dramatic one for me.. My mum has been taking care of me really well.. Thats something I really thank God for.. She cooks special dishes to suit my diet and get loads of tips from her friends on what to do and what not to do.. I felt so 'manja-ed' and seriously, I'm enjoying all the moments of being the special attention.. HAha.. But, my one and only wish now is.. SPOTS SPOTS.. pls go away..

P/s: Pls contact me if u have extra modem to lend me k.. Thanks..

I wanna be a kid back..

When I was a baby..
All I can do was 'ma-ma' here and 'pa-pa' there.. I don't even know how to walk properly and always bang the wall because I do not know how to stop...
I wished I can be an older kid so that I can tell my parents I do not like to have liquid food everyday and I wanna try solid food like what they always have..

When I was a kid..
All I can do was cry whenever things don't go my way and play with my toys.. I don't know what life really is and my grandparents were still there pampering me..
I wished I can go to primary school because I'm bored playing the same old toys and I want to have my own pocket money to buy food in those cool canteens I always see on tv.. Solid food rocks!!!

When I was a student in primary school..
All I can do was study hard to be in the top class and learn how to speak/write/read mandarin which I've never been exposed to.. All I know is I have to do my homework, or else my teachers will spank me real hard..
I wished I can go to secondary school because I wanna have long hair (chinese schools don't allow gals to have long hair and we all have the same mushroom-look-alike hairstyle) and I hated mandarin.. Its makes my report card red.. Canteen food was boring and dull...

When I was a student in secondary school..
All I can do was to ask my parents for money whenever I need them and be the joker in the class.. I was rebelious and pretty hard to be tamed.. Hahaha..
I wished I can go to college so that I can work part time and have my own money and study things that I want.. I dont like having long hair.. because its so hard to take care..

When I was a college kid..
All I can do was to study a course that I feel its most suitable for me (business) and will be able to help me to eat in the future.. I fell in love with not so suitable people.. I learned about life after school..
I wished I don't need to study anymore because lectures were boring, assignments are tiring and working life looks so cool.. Working part time and studying full time at that time is just so hard with the commitments I have in church.. Too many things to do.. so little time..

Now that I'm officially an adult..
I have to face the reality of life.. no turning back and be responsible for whatever decisions I've made for myself.. I can't go back to parents if I think I'm lack of cash and I have to be independent..I have to clean of the mess I did unintentionally and be very careful whenever I wanna speak.. Colleagues will not be as nice as how my friends were and customers might not be as nice as you think they should be.. Skincares are topping up my dressing table because it is essential for a WOMAN to take good care of her appearance.. and I attend more weddings than birthday parties nowadays.. I FEEL OLD...
I wished I can go back to my kiddo time.. where I can just play with my Barbie dolls and eat without worrying about how fat I'm going to be after swallowing a long tube of OREO's all by myself (dipped with fresh milk).. My parents will kiss me to sleep at nights and give me chocolates when i cry.. My grandparents will still be here with me and sayang/manja me like how they used to before they pass away few years back.. ( I miss them sooooooo much)

But.. Its impossible.. Time wont turn back.. I (we) have to look forward and march ahead.. So much ups and downs (more of downs) in life we have to face whether we like it or not.. sometimes I feel lost.. sometimes I wish I can just cry out loud.. Sometimes.. I just want a big hug.. Sometimes I miss those things I did before with my family/friends/someone in the world.. I know the realities in life but sometimes I just wish I don't know what I know and be dumb dumb.. I'm just being quite EMO now.. forgive me..

Can't Sleep..

- This post is caused by the hyper-active bug in me that has been buggin me and causing me to CAN'T SLEEP.. and writing randomly...

- I wanna eat Pasta right now.. I'm hungry at 2.47am.. I'm always hungry anyway..

- Can't wait to go Sungai Wang in few hours time.. I know its labelled as a 'LALA' heaven but its a really good place to grab some really cheap stuff k.. Driving is the fastest and safest way.. but I am so lazy to drive..

- I miss Sau Kin... So many things to tell her.. so little time to meet.. both so busy..

- Life after break up isn't that bad after all.. Thank God for my family and my dear friends that supported me all the way..

- I have a camp to attend in March, 1 young adults retreat to go on May (so called singles camp.. haha), another expected HUGE once-in-4-years camp to come up on August.. And a confirmed Youth camp to serve on December..I need more money!!! Oh.. did I mentioned that I want to go for at least one mission trip this year? Oh.. I just said it.. crap.. more money needed!!!!

- I'm really enjoying serving in church.. Though i have to wake up early on sunday mornings for practises for back-up singing, but its worth it. I'm really feeling the importance of attending cell group too (i wasn't that active last 2 years la..and always skip whenever I can think of excuses..always kena marah from Wuan chin and Grace..).. And the joy of picking up people to go cell with you.. Serving God is not all about doing things on stage.. Thank god that Wei Loong and Brian are attending YAF.. Their presence do spice up the cell abit.. (though our cell is very happening d.. haha.. self-praise) Praying for more to attend cell..

- I wanna play CS!!!! I'm not addicted to it k.. Addiction is defined as something you have to do everyday!! if you don't do it.. you will feel shaky and all head spinning.. I do not have such moments.. Just really enjoy playing it ma.. Its fun to see all the men all serious when comes to killing their own friends in the cyber world..