Friday, April 25, 2008

Dont understand..

I was on my way for a medical check-up in KL (near masjid jamek) taking public transport and thanks to my dearest colleague who is willing to drop me at Kelana Jaya LRT station.. and make me realise alot of things..

I don't understand:

-Why some dumb drivers don't even wanna let other people from other direction to move even though he can't move further front.. (these type of drivers really drive me nuts!!) And when you honk them, they will just look in front pretending they are dumb.. stupid people..

-Why klang can be so jam all the time!!! Now even worse, if you are coming from Port Klang to Klang, the bridge there will be jam packed with impatient nutty drivers.. From 3 lanes, they cut to 2 lanes.. I really hope those contruction workers know what they are doing.. I bet the bridge is flooded with CURSES from all drivers..

-Why men nowadays are so not gentleman!! When i was walking out from the LRT, there's this stupid AH BENG that just pushed me away and step on my shoe.. and dont even bother to apologize.. he just look forward and pushes his way out of the LRT.. makes me wanna curse him so much..

-Why doctors smoke in their clinic's toilet.. Hello doctor, toilets are for you to do your small and big business (and whatever that is in between like 'lao sai') but its not meant for you to take advantage on it!! Plus, you are a doctor for goodness sake!! You guys are the ones that always advice people not to smoke because its bad for health.. Looks like you need to go back to school for refreshment class!!! I was the unlucky one that have to go into the toilet after him (because i need to past urine for test) and the smoke was just unbearable..

- Why our KTM take so long to come!!! Government always encourage us to take public trnasport but it is so time consuming!! I have no complains for LRT but our KTM service really.. well.. sucks after so many years.. Plus, the KTM station at KL central was pretty hot!!! I miss my car so much at that time.. Waited like almost half and hour for the train to arrive.. Learn from our neighbour man!!

It wasn't the most pleasent day I have ever encounter and my temperature was really boiling after so many things.. It just add up into the 'hot' factor in me.. haha.. There are other more 'WHYs' I have but I'm just too lazy to list them down.. Have a good weekend everyone.. Hope you guys wont have such a suck-y day like me..

P/s: The forbidden kingdom was really a dissapointment.. I really had high expectation on this movie because 2 of my favourite actors are in there.. JET LI AND JACKIE CHAN.. Don't play play.. but the plot was bad.. the effect wasn't that good and the whole story was quite a mess.. compared to other shows they acted before..Plus.. since when Chinese in CHINA those days know how to speak ENGLISH? You tell me la... Even the chinese GOD in heaven also can speak ENGLISH wei..

Monday, April 21, 2008

Everything starts with a FIRST..

She took a big breath before entering the restaurant that she has chosed in the brightly lighted shopping complex.. She still feels concern about herself and looking around as the people walking by.. Her mum was right, she was too caught up with so many friends in her life and she needs to take some time off and just be alone for awhile.. Having friends is not a bad thing.. but being alone once a while to 'detox' the brain is good for the soul. She doesn't understand how other people in the world can just eat in a restaurant alone while watching couples cuddling or people chatting away (loudly) with their friends.. Her friends can even go and watch a movie in a cinema alone!! She just can't do it.. ALONE..

She's been feeling all stressed up lately with her boss demanding more from her and more reports are required to be completed, she felt misserable with all the things happening in her life and she just do not want to tell her friends fearing that they might think that she's some depressing little chicken who just can't appreciate what God has given her. She felt contented with what she has, but at the same time she felt empty.. Empty because there's no goals in her life right now she wants to accomplish, empty because of the failed relationships she has, empty because she's tired and just don't feel like doing anything, and empty because she's not sure whether what she wants is right for her or not. She need some time alone in a place where no one knows her (and she can't find anyone that knows her) and she can do what she loves best- Reading her new found love- 'PS, I love you' by Cecelia Ahern (which she always imagined as 'Pamela Soo, I love you'.. secretly..) in a quiet and peaceful surrounding..

She surveyed the menu that was placed on top of the counter in front of the French-like restaurant and decided that this will be it.. The waitress greeted her politely as she walked in and handled her a menu for her to browse through as she sits down comfortably on the couch.. She ordered a Grilled salmon (which claims to come with creamy mashed potato and steamed vege) and her all time favourite western tea- English Breakfast and waited for the waitress to repeat the order before she continues her reading.. Anticipating to know the ending but appreciating the skillful writting of Cecelia.

Her mum was right, eating alone doesn't mean you are a sad old woman who has no company and eating alone can be quite stress-free as you do not have to ask around your company what they would like to eat and which restaurant they would like to go. You can just go anywhere you like and eat whatever you want. She told her mum that she feels bad seeing people eating alone in restaurants as she feels that they might feel lonely. Now she knows that she was wrong..

A tall,dark not quite bad looking waiter asked her politely whether is it ok for him to clear the empty plate in front of her when she was flipping the page of her book. She smiled at him politely and nodded. The food was quite good but the fish was a little too thick for her liking.. But she loves the mashed potato and forced herself to finish the big pile of it.. She was and is enjoying her alone time and it doesn't seem that bad.. It might not be a big deal for most people, but it is a big deal for her as she has never eaten in a restaurant alone in her entire 22 years of life.. Let alone sitting in a restaurant for more than 1 hour!! She rather 'tah bau' her food back home or she rather starve most of the time if there's noone accompanying her to eat...

She paid the bill which came up to an amount she did not expected.. But the ego and pride in her has take charged of her facial expression and she just place the money on the tray that was on the waiter's hand. She walked out of the restaurant feeling all fresh and new, giving herself a pat on her shoulder and was pretty proud of herself. Eating alone wasn't that bad and sad as she thought after all.. She did something she has never done before and she knows, in few months time, (if all things are according to what she expects) chances of her eating alone outside will increase drastically..

P/S: I LOVE YOU ALL!!!!!!

Wednesday, April 16, 2008

Kena 'Tag' Again..

Name 5 people you can think of right off the top of your head.
1) Sau kin
2) Ryan Ng
3) Wuan Chin
4) Grace Gan
5) Jeffrey Leong

Don't read the questions underneath until you write the names of all 5 people.This is a lot funnier if you actually randomly list the names first...NO CHEATING!DON'T LOOK AHEAD UNLESS YOU FILLED UP THE TOP!

1. HOW DID YOU MEET 1 ?
I met Sau kin during Standard 1 time when we were in the same class.. that was more than 10 years back!!!

2. On a scale of 1 -10 how would u rate your friendship with 1 ?
1-10? Perfect 10..

3. How long have you known 4 ?
Grace ah.. Well, I've known her by name for a few years but it was recent years that we became close and Kaki shopping..

4. How do you know number 3?
Wuan Chin.. In church.. same like Grace..

5. Wheres 5 ?
Jeffrey? Its either he's at home surfing the net reading everyone's blog or he will be at the GYM at AEON working out for his abs..

6. A fact about number 1 ?
Much more patient than me..

7. Who is 4 going out with?
That would be a secret for me to know and not for u all to find out..

8. What does 1 do for a living?
She works for a liner company and incharged of most of the documents

9. Would you live with number 3 ?
Living with Wuan Chin will be a whole load of fun and chats.. we do plan to stay togeher in the future if we have to..

10. What do you like about number 2 ?
He's a nice teddy bear who will listen to all your problems no matter what..

11. Do you miss number 5 ?
Jeffrey? Haha.. its hard to miss him.. coz we meet almost every week.. plus, he always bully me..

12. Would you make out with number 4 ?
Make out? disturbing wei..

13. What’s your opinion of number 2 ?
Ryan is sweet + sarcastic most of the time

14. What's your favorite memory with number 5 ?
we went mission trip and holiday at Sabah together with other friends and he really takes good care of me throughout the whole trip.. thank god for 'uncle'..

15. What would you do if number 1 and 2 were going out?
Sau kin with Ryan... that would be great.. i wanted to match them up.. but too bad.. Ryan has found someone really sweet for himself.. so sau kin is still single and AVAILABLE...

16. Ever had a long conversation with 5 ?
Ya.. alot.. coz we hang out alot..

17. Have you ever slept at 2's house?
Cannot.. where can.. haven't been to his house also..

18. Do you hang out with 3 a lot?
Of course!!! Shopping, movies.. just chill at our homes and gossip.. u name it la..

19. Who have you known the longest?
Definitely Sau kin.. since primary Standard 1 leh!!! Dont play play.. we were 7 that time.. now we are 22++ (she's already 23).. U do the math!!

21. How often do you talk to 1 ?
We used to talk alot!! but nowadays very busy.. miss her loads!!!

22. What about 2 ?
We are working in the same company.. meet almost everyday!! U say leh?

24. Would you go out for a date with 5 ?
Go out wit 'Uncle'.. very hard to imagine..

25. Do you dream about 2 ?
Haven't.. why should i dream about 'teddy bears'?

26. What did no 4 did to you that you can never forget?
When we were in cell, we played a game and she was suppose to act out Wild Beast for us to guess but she mistakenly thought it was WILDER BEAST.. thus she acted like some monster which was really funny and all of us laughed till our stomachs cramp.. that was classic.. we even recorded it..

28. What's 3 hobby?
She loves all those girly stuff and she really can DIY on her clothes and all which came out pretty good.. she loves shopping too.. she reads alot and she loves to chat with anyone..

29. Tag 5 people :Whoever that's reading now and has a blog.. just do this tag thing la.. for fun la..

Tuesday, April 8, 2008

I've been tagged..

This is my first time 'kena' tag.. Tagged from someone that I never expect and another one whom I somesort can expect.. Here goes.. Happy reading about my boring dull life..

Instructions : Remove 1 question from below, and add in your personal question, make it a total of 20 questions, then tag 8 people in your list, list them out at the end of this post. Notify them in their chat box that he/she has been tagged:



1. At what age do you wish to marry?
Hahah.. 17? which I'm so way out of the age.. I really wanted 25 but it seems to be a little impossible for now.. at least b4 the age of 30 la..

2. If you have the chance, what would you probably say to your beloved one?
erm.. 'I love you'.. Like duh?

3. What do you fear most in life?
Being all alone and no one to talk to.. I fear the dark!!!

4. When you pangsai, which position you prefer? Sit or squad? And Why?
This question is guarantee from WEI LOONG 1!!!! I prefer to sit.. coz my butt will be at ease and the 'sai' will come out smoother.. haha


5. Where is the place that you want to go the most?
I wanna go TAIWAN.. BADLY.. DESPERATELY..


6. If you can have 1 dream to come true, what would it be?
Genie in the bottle.. I wanna work for SIA.. Let me go in there without hassle..

7. Do you believe you can survive without money?
Erm.. Are you talking about one day or wat? I can survive for one day without money provided i'm at home..

8. What are you afraid to lose the most?
My faith in god.. My family.. and my frens.. and my car.. and my money.. and my 'princess' (my dog).. and my job.. and my silky soft skin.. hahaha..oh.. and my hair too!!!

9. If you win $1 million, what would you do?
I'll let u know if i get it ok.. definitely one of it will be bringing my family and some close frens for a cool holiday getaway by the beach...

10. If you meet someone that you love, would you confess to him/her?
As much as I wanna confess.. I will not do it.. coz i'm a traditional thinking kind of gal.. Man must do the job la.. be the man man!!

11. List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you.
Poh Leong: He's very sweet.. nice.. and creative..
Sammyo: She's hot, outspoken and down-to-earth

12. What are the requirements that you wish from your other half?
He who wants to be with me must be someone who is able to accept me for who i am, romantic (at least give me some pleasent surprise once a while), nice, loving, willing to spend time with his family, kind, not too stingy and not too generous, hardworking.. no need to be handsome but it would be a bonus if he has a hot body.. (come on la.. i have to sleep beside him for the rest of my life man)

13. Are you ready for marriage? Why not or why yes?
I am not ready for a marriage as I am not found (yet) by my the other half


14. What is the thing that will make you think he/she is bad?
He: The way he talks to gals..
She: The way she talks to guys..

15. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
Thing ah.. erm.. erm.. erm.. My handphone i guess.. coz i have all the numbers and birthdays saved in there..

16. If you have a chance, which part of your character would you like to change?
Character??? I seriously can be pretty bossy sometimes when I'm really annoyed.. I would love to change that..


17. Are you a shopaholic or not?
If I dont need to worry bout money issue, I seriously can be a super pro shopaholic..


18. 10 years down the road, who will you become?
Wife to a hot hunk and hopefully mother to maybe one son and daughter? haha...

19. What is/are ur trademark(s)??
'very disturbing'....

20. Who is the person that you can share all your problems with?
My mummy, my sisters.. my best fren-Sau kin, my shopping kaki- Grace and Wuan Chin.. Uncle (jeffrey).. Hermann... Ryan..



Tag 8 people.
- Amanda.. (coz jess kena tag d)
- Penny Yong
- Ryan Ng
- Su Ling
- Celina Tan
- Titus
-Jaron Tan
-David Superman

Cigarettes should be banned..

I seriously hate smokers!! The smoke they puff out whenever they smoke is seriously annoying and seriously inconsiderate.. No offence to my friends that smoke but U guys know how much I'm against u guys smoking!! I dont understand why all the smokers in the world are so dumb dumb that they fork out money to buy cigarettes and then later in life, they have to fork out more money to cure the deseases they got caused by smoking. Come on la.. we all know smoking is bad for health and it will lead to all sorts of deseases, especially cancer.. Why would you wanna speed up the pain in your life? If you have loads of money and dont mind going through all the therapies and paying super high price for the drugs to control your pain, then good for you darlings.. I'm really happy for you because at least you have a really good confident (which I dont have) that you will be filthy rich in the future..

My grandpa passed away due to smoking-caused cancer where the rest of us see him suffer during the leftover years he has on earth. It was seriously hard for him and for my grandma.. The therapies he has to go through was pure torture and it is nothing in the 'fun' category!!! He can only take liquid food because he will puke out all solid food he takes.. I prayed, I cried whenever I remember my grandpa and as much as I hate to let him go, I'm glad that God took him back and he doesn't need to suffer for long. Thank God he believed in Christ when he got to know he has cancer and was faithfully attending church. That is something that I'm really happy of. I miss my grandpa so much and believe me.. If you guys continue to smoke like chimney, u guys will ended up like my grandpa and you will see your family members blogging about how bad smoking is.. Not only you wil hard your own body, the 2nd hand smoke will also harm the people around you.. God give you a brain, use it and think wit it!!! If you have too much money, give it to me.. I help you to give to charity under your name.. SERIOUSLY!!!

*p/s: Just in case you guys don't know, Hermann's dad passed away yesterday morning and there will be another wake service Tonight (09/04/2008) at his house in Bandar Botanic at 8.30pm.. No, I dont think so his dad passed away due to smoking issues, but he died because of some complicated and very rare desease.. Pls do drop by if u have time k.. your support will mean alot to him..

Sunday, April 6, 2008

Decisions.. *argh*

Sometimes I just wish decisions are easier to make rather than me sitting down at the corner of my house, thinking and measuring all the pros and cons of any decisions I'm about to make! U might think you know what will happen if you were to choose A rather than B but alot of things will happen out of your expectations and you just fear that you will regret for choosing A and wishing that you can turn back time to choose B.. U know what i mean? I'm so in a big dilemma right now that I actually don't know what I should do next...

I might look really cheerful outside but deepdown.. I'm worried like a mad cow that is about to be slaughtered to be cook to CURRY.. consulted some of my much more mature friends but I still can't make up my mind. Often, I make my decisions in order to avoid the reality or not to face the problem I'm having.. I know its stupid but we are all humans that tend to fall to the easier ways.. So many things that occupied my mind right now and I really wish I'm at some beach in BALI (ok.. Bali abit too far.. maybe Perhentian will do) relaxing and throw away all these disturbing thoughts.. I'm so in a tension and stressful moment that praying and reading the bible does not really give me the peace at heart..

I thank God for whatever he has blessed me but I wish I can meet him in person right now and ask him what is he trying to do on me????

Yesterday went up to Genting with some of the Grace Youth Camp commettee members to check up the place there for our upcoming GY camp.. It was quite a fruitful one and we have made up our mind on one place that we all agree will be the camp site for 2008's GY camp.. Although we didn't manage to play in the theme parks but we did discussed about alot of things that really opened my eyes.. I haven't been to Genting for quite some time.. I miss playing in the Outdoor theme park.. I miss those great times i had with my family.. I miss holidays and vacations.. I in desperate need of a good holiday getaway.. 2 days 1 night also good for me.. anyone going anywhere?

p/s: I put the largest font due to some of my very 'old' frens that complained my previous fonts are too small.. Nah!!! now i give you super big fonts!!!! hahaha