Saturday, December 12, 2009

how simple life can be..

My blog is always abandoned by me because sometimes, i really dont know what to talk about.. anyways, got this email few times from many different people and I thought this is something really good to share to u guys with.. Whether u have received this forwarded email before, just run through it.. its a good reminder on how simple life can be...

Health:

1. Drink plenty of water.
2. Eat breakfast like a king, lunch like a prince and dinner
like a beggar.
3. Eat more foods that grow on trees and plants and eat less
food that is manufactured in plants.
4. Live with the 3 E's -- Energy, Enthusiasm, and Empathy.
5. Make time for prayer.
6. Play more games.
7. Read more books than you did in 2008.
8. Sit in silence for at least 10 minutes each day.
9 Sleep for 7 hours.
10. Take a 10-30 minutes walk every day. And while you walk, smile.


Personality:

11. Don't compare your life to others'. You have no idea what
their journey is all about.
12. Don't have negative thoughts or things you cannot control.
Instead invest your energy in the positive present moment.
13. Don't over do. Keep your limits.
14. Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else does.
15. Don't waste your precious energy on gossip.
16. Dream more while you are awake.
17. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.
18. Forget issues of the past. Don't remind your partner with his/her
mistakes of the past. That will ruin your present happiness.
19. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone. Don't hate
others.
20. Make peace with your past so it won't spoil the present.
21. No one is in charge of your happiness except you.
22. Realize that life is a school and you are here to learn. Problems
are simply part of the curriculum that appear and fade away like
algebra class but the lessons you learn will last a lifetime.
23. Smile and laugh more.
24. You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.


Society:

25. Call your family often.
26. Each day give something good to others.
27. Forgive everyone for everything.
28. Spend time with people over the age of 70 & under the age of 6.
29. Try to make at least three people smile each day.
30. What other people think of you is none of your business.
31. Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your
family and friends will. Stay in touch.

Life:

32. Do the right thing!
33. Always speak the truth even if it leads to your death.
34. GOD heals everything.
35. However good or bad a situation is, it will change.
36. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.
37. The best is yet to come.
38. When you awake alive in the morning, thank GOD for it.
39. Your Inner most is always happy. So, be happy.


p/s: can't wait for my early christmas and birthday celebration with my family and darling next week.. hopefully everyone can make it..

Saturday, October 31, 2009

100th post!!!

HAHAA.. Finally.. I hit my 100th post.. Took me soooooooooooo long.... and my sister-jessica has already hit her 300th.. Anyway.. its not really important..

I just came back from a supposedly 5-days Taipei trip with my mum (the last day is not considered coz we have to leave our hotel at 5am!!!).. It was a blast and we shopped so much till my mum has to pay for over-weight baggage surcharge to go back to malaysia from singapore..

I'm so tired physically because I havent really had a proper rest since last week.. My schedule was jam packed!!! Its insane when I look at my schedule...

My laundry is piling up.. I wish theres a maid or someone that can help me to do it instead of me, myself and I.. XP

I will be flying to Auckland, New Zealand tomorrow.. anyone wants some awesome-ly good honey? Service charge will be billed on you if u order.. Warning: the Manuka honey is not really cheap as well...

I miss my family and friends back in Malaysia so much.. sometimes i wonder what on earth i'm doing here alone in singapore.. I miss my dad's lame jokes, I miss my mum's cooking and our heart-to-heart talks, i miss jessica's horse-like laughter and Amanda's witti-ness.. I miss my best friend sau kin, and my other 2 kaki- Yong hong and Hui Fung.. I miss Church so much.. all those crazy wackos like Wuan Chin, Sherene Cheong, GG, Stephanie, Hermann and the other Counter strike kaki that will bully me endlessly when we play that game.. Yet, I still enjoyed it.. I miss Su lin, wah jiang and Robin too.. hardly get to meet my ex-college mates ever since I left Help Uni College.. And somany other important people that if i were to list all of them down, this blog will be dam long and lame.. So many people I have to meet, yet so little time.. I wish I have 48 hours a day sometimes...

Most of all.. I miss u, jeremy.. I need you..
Tomorrow will be a new month.. NOVEMBER is still a jam-packed month for me.. But thank god for a wonderful roster that I get to fly to places I haven't been and the essential rest period so that I can travel back HOME... There's no place like home.. How nice if I can work and earn Singapore currency in Malaysia.. hahahaha.. *day dreaming*
p/s: time to unpack, then pack again..

Wednesday, September 30, 2009

updates...

Some of my 'faithful' readers have been complaining that I'm not updating my blog frequent enough.. I'm so sorry as I'm just pure lazy..
Looking at the date on my last update, I can't believe time can fly so fast..And today is already 1st of october!! Its so scarry.. and freaky.. Some of my friends are getting married and have already married.. Congratulations to Mr and Mrs Hadrion loh (canna tan) and so sorry for MIA-ing on your big day.. its so hard to change flight with other stewardess as they are always asking for some kind of 'reward'.. Also, congratulations to Mr and Mrs Lawrence Kwang (Agnes yong) as well.. Sorry again, that I'll be missing out on your big day too.. Gosh, sometimes i love my job, sometimes I really hate my job.. i hate my job when i have to miss out on big events like weddings or birthdays when I"m stuck in either singapore or somewhere around the world.. But, there is something that I love about my job.. that is to travel around the world and meet up with one of my closest friend..

Grace Gan (GG) went to london 2 weeks ago to further her studies.. and i was called up last minute by my company to do a flight to london few days back.. I was so excited and all i can think about is to meet GG.. miss her loads.. I got her London number from her darling- Jeffrey and straight away sms her.. SO happen, she will be in london too on the weekends!!! (she's 1 hour away from the heart of london)

After quite a number of sms after I touch down, we finally found each other in Primark, Oxford street. Primark is very very famous in UK as it is the CHEAPEST clothing store you can find in UK. 1 normal blouse can cost around 3 pounds or slightly more only.. It is very very cheap! We were so excited to see each other there and we hugged each other immediately after we spotted each other..

Then, I brought GG to the hotel that I'm assigned by my company to stay..

This is taken at the train station.. it was really crowded..

In the train with our shopping bags.. woohoo..

When we reached my hotel room, due to extreme tired-ness and walking, GG filled the bath tub with hot water and we soaked our poor tired legs in it and had a heart-to-heart girly talk.. I really miss those crazy times we had back then when both of us are still in malaysia, together with the other crazy chicks..

The next day, we went around the heart of london for some sight see. Due to very limited budget, we decided to take the train and explore ourselves instead of paying 24 pounds for the hop-on-hop-off sight see tour bus package.. And we never regret!!! (although we walked ALOT) and all I paid was 5.60 pounds for the all day pass (can be used for all public bus and trains) and GG paid even lesser coz she has the Oyster pass (which is something like our touch and go card).
with the famous London clock tower- BIg BEN
London eye.. which we never ride coz its too expensive..
In front of Buckingham palace.. we missed the change of guards..

The whole trip was fun filled and crazy... but at the end of the day, we have to say goodbyes and go back to reality. I really admire those people that can survive in coutries like UK or USA as the things there are so much more expensive compared to Malaysia or even Singapore. There are more pictures uploaded in my facebook, if u r interested..

Me and teddy in my hotel room.. Teddy is the representative of someone.. *cheeky smile*

The week before that, i was back in malaysia for my once-in-a-month-at-least homesick therapy holiday.. It was amanda's birthday and we had our dinner in Dragon-I and then watched some very boring movie called G-force.. It was about this bunch of guinea pigs who are trained to be like real CIA agents.. quite ridiculous and predictable.. Nearly slept in the cinema but can't deny the fact that the guinea pigs are quite cute..

Dad and mum, we realised that, dad can't smile whenever we ask him to pose for cameras..

The SOO sisters.. bad photographer.. ahem.. my mum..
On the last day of my trip, I managed to meet up with my best friend who just came back from CHINA after 2 months (ya, she survived!!) and my buddies from secondary school. Hui Fung brought along her darling togehter with their new lover-some cool DSLR camera and he helped us to take some really nice pics.. Here are my favourites..
We had our lunch at Kim Gary..
and then we 'lepak' at the food court and take more pics..
can't wait for another hang out girls!

Oh, one thing i hate about my job is that, I'm going to miss mooncake festival with my family and friends.. Ok, i dont really celebrate mooncake festival, but it is always all these festivals that make me wanna go home even more.. The mooncake boxes in malaysia nowadays are getting more and more competitive! They are so gorgeous and some of the boxes are more expensive than the mooncakes itself!! Its ridiculous.. yet...
My parents bought this ..
And look at the packaging inside.. so pretty and gold..
And then, Jeremy bought this for my parents to 'bribe' them..

And look at how the box opens and the packaging inside!!!!

Thanks for the mooncakes..
Happy mooncake festival, everyone!!! I'm gonna miss home as I will be in Shitney again!!!
p/s: I seriously despise some people who doesn't know how to appreciate the things they used to have and now regreting and trying all sorts of stupid ways to get it back.. grow up, kid...

Thursday, September 10, 2009

too fast too furious?

Why wanna hinder yourself to be with someone who appreciates you so much for someone who doesn't even appreciate you?
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Why care about what other people thinks when a relationship is just between you both?
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So what if others think you are a player, as long i know you are not and that you are happy, then doesn't matter already LA...
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Only you can decide for yourself what is best for you..
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For a guy to come down all the way to singapore to accompany you after your break up is not easy lo.. even your ex also never come down before..
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All I want is you to be happy.. If this guy makes you happy and makes you feel loved and appreciated, why wanna miss your chance?
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So, you wanna cry when the guy decided to give up on you?
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You have cried for 2 weeks, isn't that long enough to heal a wound?
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Time is just numbers.. so what if others think you are moving on too fast?
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Relationship only involves you and him.. dont care about what other people think la..
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ABOVE ARE SOME OF THE STATEMENTS FROM THOSE THAT SUPPORTED ME TO TAKE THE PLUNGE.. INCLUDING MY FAMILY (my mum especially sayang him the most).. HAHAHA.. THEREFORE.. I DECIDED TO TAKE THE PLUNGE AND HOPEFULLY, PRAYERFULLY, THIS WILL BE THE LAST PLUNGE..
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p/s: this entry is inspired due to too much slammings from many people whether I'm attached again or not..

Tuesday, August 25, 2009

holiday..

Its 2.34am in the morning now and here I am, in the comfort of my own home, eating my instant Mee Goreng-Sambal Prawn flavour and updating my yet-again-abandoned blog.. Talking bout having life..hahaha..
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This is one huge problem about me, I get hungry very fast and I can't sleep when I'm hungry.. Ya, I know darn well that eating after midnight and before u sleep is a big NO NO for someone who needs to fit into her tiny little kebaya uniform but I get very cranky when I can't sleep too.. So, instead of rolling from left to right on my small single bed, I decided bravely to storm down my home's kitchen and satisfy my cravings for instant noodles..
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And now i'm a Happy big girl.. coz i'm no longer hungry.. hahaha..
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I just watched UP- the latest animation movie from PIXAR and it was all VERY RIDICULOUS.. from the beginning to the end.. BUT, I enjoyed it.. VERY MUCH.. Although it was really ridiculous and illogic, PIXAR has their own way to deliver a warm touching message to the people.. I went and watch with my family and all 5 of us had such a great laugh.. Its been some time as well since we went for a movie togehter.. And I'm glad that my dad was the one who insisted to watch this movie in the cinema due to all the good reviews he read from the various resources.. One thing really cute about my dad is that, he relies heavilly on the reviews of the magazines or newspaper he reads.. If the review is good, he will only consider to watch that particular movie.. If its not good, he will gladly write a list for me to buy the pirated DVDs from Shanghai.. (sshh... dont tell MSIA government that we are supporting piracy.. coz i'm sure U do too..)
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p/s: My mum reads my blog.. yes.. nowadays, our parents are getting more IN man.. dont play play.. and the best part is, she reads from my 1st entry to my last (talking bout my biggest fan).. and my sisters' blogs are not spared too.. hahahah..

Wednesday, August 12, 2009

think again..

A colleague of mine commented this when we were talking about people that spend so much money on branded goods:

'Why do u need to buy something that u dont need,
with the money u dont have,
to please people that u dont even know?'
Very very inspiring...
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p/s: Gosh.. time really flies.. Im in my current company for 1 year already.. and soon, I'll be trained to serve in business class... wow.. I wonder whats ahead..

Wednesday, July 15, 2009

Back to work, back to reality..

After almost 10 days of rest.. Recovered from fever and flu.. Still recovering super slowly from the heartbreak.. I am finally back to work.. And I was literally dragging my feet to report for work..
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I was abit slow as I was really lack of sleep and i had my leaves way too long.. Everything got so rusty and I even forgot to put my lipstick when I came out from my singapore house.. hahaha..
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I'm now in Jakarta.. Will be flying back tomorrow morning and I got to wake up like 3am or so.. I'm staying in Shangri-la now which is situated at the heart of Jakarta town.. around 1 hour from the airport..
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This hotel is way much better than the hotel we stayed last time as the latter hotel was 'haunted'.. It looks scarry and everywhere in the hotel looks dark and spooky.. Even the room itself gives me all the goosebumps.. But, so far I didn't encounter any 'good friends' when I was staying there.. I do hear alot of stories about peoples' encounter with those 'uninvited' though..
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My blog has been pretty dull.. with no pitures.. Here's some pistures that I took from my room.. The view is pretty good..
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p/s: I finally got my confirmation in my company!!! It has been a long wait!! After so many uneventful things happen in my life, I finally can see something that gives me hope.. Well, I was pretty ready to be sacked and go home (due to high mc days during probation period).. But looks like its not gonna happen any soon.. hahaha.. Thank god for everything..

Monday, July 13, 2009

I GOT A NEW LOVER...

I Have a new Lover..
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Not A boyfriend...
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But a NEW LOVER..
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A lover that will stick with me faithfully no matter what
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A lover that can be turned on anytime
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A lover that will make me happy.. Very very happy..
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Oh my WHITE LOVER..
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My new WHITE Nintendo DS..
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HAHAHAHAHA
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What were u thinking?
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p/s: Its been more than 1 week.. I think i'm moving on well.. I think I am.. this is the hardest breakup ever..

Thursday, July 9, 2009

Progress..

I cried worse than a baby last night~! OH MY GOODNESS GRACIOUS!! Its so embarrassing.. Now that I think back.. But, I finally released.. I FINALLY RELEASED.. I didn't say much about anything.. Most of the times were my friends talking and advicing and comforting me.. And all I did was cry like a stupid silly idiot brainless baby.. (ok, theres no such baby in this world)
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It started pretty harmless.. I went to Sushi King for a very light dinner with a good old friend of mine- Ivy and I was asking about her love life more rather than letting out the frustration I had after 1 week of ignorance from HIM.. I thought I can pass through the night without any tears and I can just act cool..
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Then we went to Modestos to meet up with another 2 friends.. Eric and Cherlyn.. They were gossiping and things turn really sad (for me)when Cherlyn says 'He doesn't wanna see you at all for the time being..I'm sorry to say this, and i know u r really sad, but he just want to be left alone'.. The words that she used were blunt yet sharp.. Blunt in a way, its simple straightforward english. Sharp in a way, its like a sharp spear to my heart.. All I want was a simple meeting between me and HIM so that we can clear our piling misunderstandings and then MOVE ON.. I know he wont pick up my calls, and I tried sms him telling him all my feelings.. Be it anger, frustration and most times dissapointment.. Yet, he can't just sms me and tell me that he doesn't wanna see me.. AND he chooses to tell a third party to pass the message to me.. It hurts.. I just dont understand how can he treat me this way?
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Then, I just shut up.. almost the whole night.. Until Ivy pull me up from my chair and told me she wanted to talk to me.. That is when I broke down.. LITERALLY.. I really cried.. In front of public.. I can't believe it.. But i can't control it.. All the things that the rest said were true but hurtful. I can't deny the fact.. It all right in front of me..
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People must be thinking I'm some weird maniacs.. crying in a business centre like a baby. But it was really a release.. I didn't know I needed it.. Ivy's hug and encouragement were so warm that I just can't control myself and act like everything was fine anymore.. Its not fine.. I love him, I miss him, I know i'm wrong, I tried to fix it.. But he IGNORED..
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What Ivy said was right, if he doesn't give a damn about u anymore, why must you torture yourself like that? Do u think its worth it? You have tried any possible ways to reach him, and he doesn't even bother to respond, maybe he's happily sleeping at home while u r suffering here, he doens't even bother to care, just let it go.. U deserve someone much better..
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Gosh, thats something I've been hearing and tried so hard to convince myself.. I just feel very unfair.. People make mistakes, why am I not given a chance to patch it back.. So fast, he just set the punishment for me.. ITS NOT FAIR...
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From Modesto to the bench in front of Starbucks and then back to Modestos.. My tears never stop.. Even after Eric has drove me to the front of my house, I told him I need time to cool off before I enter my house.. That was like 11pm already..
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Then I decided to go back.. because Eric has been babysitting me too much and he needs to work the next day.. I appreciate his effort and felt guilty for troubling him every since I broke off with HIM.. THANK YOU SO MUCH ERIC AND really sorry to trouble you the whole night.. I really appreciate it and no more drunk crazy sad nights for me..
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I thought i was calm when i get back.. But the moment I saw my mum at the door.. I broke down even worse.. Mum was shock and just hugged me.. She never say anything but asked me a few questions.. I never reply and just concentrate on my cying.. I was a little tipsy as I never had enough sleep for the pass few days and the beers that I swallowed really kicks in already..
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Today, I felt much better.. But I can't help longing to have a peep on him to see how is he or hoping he will at least call to say sorry for being such a jerk ignoring and AVOIDING me..
It didn't happen but I believe everything happens for a reason.. Maybe he's really done with me.. He wants to be alone or maybe he has found someone who can be there for him all the time.. Maybe he realises this long distant thing is not suitable for him.. I thought my life was perfect.. Happy supportive family, good money flying career and a darling that loves me with unconditional love.. I might be in the midst of losing my job.. I dont know.. it doesn't really affect me coz I can always come back to malaysia and find a job and now I lost him.. I dont know how long I need to stand on my own feet again..
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I know they are not reading.. but Dad n mum, I'm really sorry for making you worry.. I really dont mean to.. But I couldnt' hold on to it anymore as his plain ignorance really hurt me to the max.. and sorry for drinking so much and not giving me lecture about it.. Amanda, thanks for not asking anything and just be there for me with the tissue box.. Jessica, I know you are worried bout me, but I'm fine.. Eric, thanks for being the driver of the night and your reminder about who's more important in my life.. Cherlyn, thanks for being just there although I can't really remember what you have said.. And most important of all, IVY, i love you babe.. I know you have your own issues, yet u stayed up for me.. I really can't thank you more..
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I know i've said this before.. But I have to keep reminding myself coz I will always forget..
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TIME TO MOVE ON (dont miss him dont miss him dont miss him)
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p/s: seriously.. I think true love is really full of bullshit and crap right now..

Monday, July 6, 2009

75%-25%

I'm currently waiting for the boarding of my flight at Terminal 1, Singapore Changi Airport.. 75% of me is desperate to go back to the comfort of my home where my family and friends are there to welcome me home.. But, theres another 25% of me thats really reluctant to go back.. Going back to KLIA.. The place where WE started.. The place where we exchange promises and commitment that we will stay faithful and love and appreciate one another..
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Not forgetting.. passing by his house each and everytime I go back home.. Haihz..
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Heavy rain just subsided in Singapore here.. The floor outside is wet and it really brings my spirit down.. Its so funny that my world has turned upside down ever since I sms him 'Lets walk seperate paths, since u just ignore me'.. It was me who initiated.. but looks like its me who's regreting it and really sad about it..
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I'm determined to move on, i'm determined to change for the better..
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But its dam tough..
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I need a nice drink.. release and unleash the crazy me.. Klang.. Here I come..
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p/s: Darn, I'm hungry.. I thought I just had my lunch.. I'm gaining back my appetite.. Yeah.. but no more flat tummy..

one inspiring thought...

This is something from my fren that he cut and paste for me: (very inspiring)
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Maybe God wants us to meet a few wrong people before meeting the right one so that when we finally meet the right person, we will know how to be grateful for that gift.
When the door of happiness closes, another opens, but often times we look so long at the closed door that we don't see the one which has been opened for us.
The best kind of friend is the kind you can sit on a porch and swing with, never say a word, and then walk away feeling like it was the best conversation you've ever had.
It's true that we don't know what we've got until we lose it, but it's also true that we don't know what we've been missing until it arrives.
Giving someone all your love is never an assurance that they'll love you back! Don't expect love in return; just wait for it to grow in their heart but if it doesn't, be content it grew in yours. It takes only a minute to get a crush on someone, an hour to like someone, and a day to love someone, but it takes a lifetime to forget someone.
Don't go for looks; they can deceive. Don't go for wealth; even that fades away.
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Go for someone who makes you smile because it takes only a smile to make a dark day seem bright. Find the one that makes your heart smile.
There are moments in life when you miss someone so much that you just want to pick them from your dreams and hug them for real!
Dream what you want to dream; go where you want to go; be what you want to be, because you have only one life and one chance to do all the things you want to do.
May you have enough happiness to make you sweet, enough trials to make you strong, enough sorrow to keep you human, enough hope to make you happy.
Always put yourself in others' shoes. If you feel that it hurts you, it probably hurts the other person, too.
The happiest of people don't necessarily have the best of everything; they just make the most of everything that comes along their way.
Happiness lies for those who cry, those who hurt, those who have searched, and those who have tried, for only they can appreciate the importance of people who have touched their lives. Love begins with a smile, grows with a kiss and ends with a tear.
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The brightest future will always be based on a forgotten past, you can't go on well in life until you let go of your past failures and heartaches.
When you were born, you were crying and everyone around you was smiling. Live your life so that when you die, you're the one who is smiling and everyone around you is crying.
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Hong An, thanks for this inspiring passage.. I really got inspired.. Thanks for everything..
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p/s: I can't wait to go back HOME to just have a long break!!!

Sunday, July 5, 2009

shattered...

A very good fren of mine told me this:
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"a person worth your tears will never make u cry, and a person who makes u cry is not worth your tears..."
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He keeps reminding me that and i really understand it.. but how many of us could actually live with it?
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Yesterday I was down with fever, life was like hell.. Panadol was like my new BFF (best friend forever) Stuck in my small little room in singapore, worrying that my mc will affect my career, heart not only broken, but torn to pieces, and my mind is all occupied about him..
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It was hard.. I barely sleep well.. took me 3 hours to roll on the bed, sleep for 2 hours and then I'm awake again.. for no reason.. I can't deal with it.. I was wrong to say 'lets just walk our seperate paths' but I felt so hurt by all his doings, that's why i was so mad.. But he doesn't understand.. he thinks its my fault.. that i put both of us into such torture.. U think i want it?
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I can't deal with it until someone told me.. that HE actually told her.. he doesn't want to have anything to do with me right now.. He just want peace, he just wanna be alone.. I was SHATTERED..I cant believe he can say that.. I dont know how to face the reality.. My nose keeps running, cough never ending.. and my heart is sharreted and burned.. I've never felt so horible in my life..
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Yes, i've been through many breakups.. but none is as bad and as hurting as this.. Away from all my family and good friends.. I felt like end of the world.. I really need to do something.. but I do not have the energy.. 1 bowl of fish porridge, took me 2 meal times to finish it.. Gone were my hearty appetite and my really piggy sleeping habits..
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What happened to all the love and promises? What happened to all the sweet memories? What happened to all our dreams and plans? Just because I said something wrong, he deleted everything from his mind.. He keeps assuming that we will argue if he calls but he didn't even try.. ITS NOT FAIR..Its so hurting to be treated like dirt by someone u care so much for the past few months.. Its so dissapointing to see someone give up on you just like that.. But, i wanna get over it.. He wants me out of his life, fine.. I will make his wish come true.. I need to get over it.. If he doesn't appreciate me, after all the patch-up efforts i've done, I got nothing to say at all... I'm really tired.. Mentally, physically and literally...
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Thanks to all my friends that were and still are with me.. I thought LOVE is most powerful but I was so naive to believe that kind of crap.. I dont know when I have the guts back to fall in love again.. I told Wah Jiang, I may wanna turn lesbian, since men always like to hurt girls so much.. hahaha.. But I can't imagine myself kissing a girl.. feels quite wrong (for me personally).. No hard feelings to all the gays and lesbian out there ya.. I still respect u guys..
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Love is nothing (at least to me now and for few months n years to come), Friendship rules and on top of that, FAMILY is the best.. i just can't wait to go home.. to a place where i can feel secure.. a place where I have a shoulder to lean on.. I'm really tired.. I really need a break.. i really do.. my life was all about him so much that everyone suspects that I'm in love with him more than he does to me.. i hope that is not true.. but i guess the reality has its own say...
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I'm so embarrased with myself.. i thought i can patch things up.. but he dont give a damn anymore.. Now only i know.. all the stupid silly calls i made that he ignored.. I feel so dumb now..
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I need to be not myself just one day.. I wanna try something that I never try before.. I just wanna release myself.. and look forward for a better day to come..
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p/s: I'm sorry for being such a whinny person to some of my friends.. U know who u are.. and thank you for being so supportive and not forsaking me at this time.. pls give me some time.. at least 3 months.. sorry...

Tuesday, June 30, 2009

In order to get distracted..

I went to Orchard Road today to meet a friend and we went to Far East Plaza(FEP) where Singaporeans claimed it to be the Singapore Sungai Wang Plaza.. The reason is, I cannot stay in my singapore house as I will really think too much.. I need some distractions.. There are many small little shops in FEP and are sold in affordable prices (compared to those high end brands along Orchard Road).. I didn't plan to buy ANYTHING but ended up overspent..
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I bought 2 dresses, 2 leggings, 2 long necklaces, The little Nyonya DVD series (singapore famous drama), 1 blouse, 2 story books and 4 packets of tissue from an old lady that cost me s$2.. and oh.. not forgetting the lunch, tong sui and dinner as well...
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When you are not in a very good mood and you wanna get yourself distracted, NEVER GO OUT OF YOUR HOUSE IN SIGAPORE THINKING U WILL NEVER BUY ANYTHING especially during this GREAT SINGAPORE SALE..
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ITS A BAD IDEA!!! BAD HORRIBLE IDEA....
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p/s: I dont know how long I can take this but 2 days seem like 2 weeks long.. I miss you..

Monday, June 29, 2009

Interesting people..

I was working my way up to Shanghai and it was a day flight..
As usual, smile on your face for my kind of job is a MUST YES thing.. Passengers were restless and hyper, many demands were attended..
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An elderly couple (confirmed above age 50) looked at me and smile at me after I served them their hot chinese tea.. I strike a friendly conversation with them and got to know that they just came back from a holiday at Bali.. I told them, I wanna go Bali too but time doesn't permits..
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After meal service, elderly man signaled me.. I went to them and they told me that they really enjoyed the flight and that me and my colleagues have provided an extraordinary good service and they trully appreciate it.. I told them thank you and felt so proud..
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Elderly man told me they wanna take me as their god-daughter.. I AM PLEASENTLY SURPRISED!!! This is definitely something very very new for me.. They told me i spoke really good mandarin and that they really like me alot.. I told them i am really honoured..
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Elderly lady passed me a piece of paper with her fine chinese writing with her house address, names of them both and their contact numbers.. I was still stunned with whats happening and dont really know how to react.. They told me to keep in touch with them and asked for my numbers.. I gave them my numbers and also email address and she said that she can ask her daughter to drop me an email as they are going to Shanghai to visit her.
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I went back to work with the piece of paper on my hand.. Delighted.. I've never felt so appreciated since I started this work.. I am thrilled that now I have god-parents from CHINA.. wahahahaha.. But after much thoughts, I decided to go back to them and give them my malaysia address.. They told me they love to write and wouldn't mind to write letters to me.. COOL!!!
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We briefly talked about our family and both of them have a pair of children (a male and a female)who are older than me and happily married. At least, I know this is not another passenger who's trying to match make me with their son. Phew.. They even showed me the picture of my new 'sister' and invited me to go to their house to stay, if I ever travel to that part of China.
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It was really cool and although I have came back from Shanghai and resting in singapore now, I am still excited about the whole thing. But I dont really know what I should do.. Should I wait for them to call or should i take the initiative to contact them.. Since they wanted me to become their god-daughter, i think I should just stick around and see what happens..
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I have CHINESE god-parents.. I have a reason to go CHINA for holiday.. wee....
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p/s: I am still stunned by the fact that the self-proclaimed King of Pop, the late Michael Jackson has passed away due to cardiac arrest.. I'm not a big fan of him but definitely appreciate some of his music works.. He was only 50.. He achieved so much, yet hasn't achieve many other things that he can in the future.. This teaches me a lesson, money is not everything and it definitely can't buy u life. Whats the point of having so much money, but u can't bring them with you when u pass away? Rest in peace, Michael Jackson..

Monday, June 22, 2009

funny facts..

Although my homesick desease is still very very serious after staying in singapore for almost 1 year now.. i can't help but to thank god on the opportunities i have to travel around the world and to see different culture.. Its pretty much a culture shock most of the time but i list them as fun facts around the world for now:

-In Dubai, female sits at the front portion of the bus and males have to sit at the back portion of the bus. If you are a couple, u have to be seperated throughout the bus journey. Unless you are married (and carries your marriage certificate with u), husband can stand beside wife while she sits. Male and female sitting together is a big NO NO... When the bus has no females at all, male can occupy the front portion of the bus. But, once theres a female on board, the males have to move your ass..

-In USA, after you have finished the mouth-watering fattening-ass meal, you ask for the bill. At the bottom of the bill, there will be a tipping guide where they will 'politely' ask for tips which 5% of your total bill is the most basic you 'should' give. Most common, 5%, 8% and 10%. I dont know what is the consequences of not tipping but its definitely a 'must do' culture in USA.

-In EGYPT.. unlike USA, they do not have tipping guide.. But they are more daring! Whatever service you hire that involves a local, at the end of the day, the local will not leave u alone unless you tip that person. If the local thinks that tip you gave is too low, that local will have no problem telling you that, he/she wants more.. So, if you want to sight see in Egypt, prepare to spend a fortune just to tip the locals.

-In Holland, prostitution and drugs are LEGAL! When you walk on the streets of the famous 'Red District', there will be pretty babes winking at you behind the windows of the 'shops'.. Even during winter season, they will be wearing only sexy lingerie and flirting with their eyes to the passer-bys.. There are cafes selling weed coffees 24-7 and they sell weed seeds and sex toys in souvenior shops..

ok, thats all for the moment as I'm abit bored facing the computer for almost 3 hours in the hotel room, stuck in Johannesburg.. I'm 6 hours behind Malaysia and singapore and I just can't wait to go home.. Its tiring but its all worth it..

Till the next funny facts.. adios!

P/s: PSP or nintendo ds lite? OR should I get a digital camera 1st as I can't find my missing PENTAX digital camera after almost 2 months already...

Tuesday, May 12, 2009

Finally the blogger in me kicks in...

Its been a long time since I last updated my poor ignored-by-me blog.. I'm really sorry.. I've been caught up by alot of unexpected things and of course the lazy bug.. I'm now stuck in Dubai for the 4th time since my-only-7-months flying career and alot of my friends thought that I should really consider marrying a super rich middle east man since I travel to middle east so often.. (not forgetting my 3 times Abu Dhabi experiences as well) Sorry guys, my heart is all for one klang guy only.. hahaha...

Anyway, many things have happened since feb (my last update) and the best experience was the opportunity to travel to Egypt (which I'm goin again in 3 days time) last month. Oh, not forgeting my encounter with the sick godess in me after that trip which I fell so ill that I could not walk out of the bed.. Down with fever, food poisoning and also fungus desease on my palms.. talking bout 'good luck'..

It was really an eye opener for me to discover the mysterious Egypt and also to mingle with the locals there.. Egypt is so BROWN.. literally.. most of their buildings are just plain brown in colour and there's basically no sky scrapers or any other kind of colourful buildings. The roads are poorly-maintained and the people there drive like the maniacs on the streets of India. If you have a weak heart, please do not ever consider driving on the streets of these 2 countries..

If you have my facebook account, you will be able to see the pictures I took when I was there.. Due to the really inconvenient way of uploading the pictures on this blog, you wont be able to see any pics here as there were too many pics too upload... SORRY again..

If you think that your own country is really that bad that you just can't wait to migrate to somewhere where the grass is greener, U will change your mind once u step foot into Egypt (or even India).. The people here are struggling to earn a living as there were so much competition in everything they do.. From taxi to the food industry.. Everywhere we go, they just try their best to capture our attention to buy their products or services.. They always expect some tips (in the form of $ka-chings$) from us and if we dont tip according to their expectations, they will not hessitate to demand for more.. U can say they are really 'thick skin' but I really do pity them as the living condition here is really not as comfortable as where I came from and they are just struggling in the dog-eat-dog world..

Egypt is really a nice place to visit at least once in your life time and you will learn that the grass is not always greener on the other side.. Of course, dont miss out the magnificent glorious huge Giza pyramids where till now, still takes my breath away.. Really respect the ancient people for building those pyramids.. *go check out the pics on my facebook*

p/s: I have Johannesburg, Incheon, San Francisco, Shanghai to go next month.. Yeepee!!!!! Can't wait can't wait.. but that means.. I have only 4 days to be in Klang only.. darn..

Monday, February 23, 2009

The young and innocent times..

So many things have happened recently that I can't help but to miss my young, naive, innocent and maybe stupid times when I was still a toddler that barely knows how to spell AEROPLANE.. Here are some of the thoughts that used to irritate me so much that now I find myself laughing..

- I used to think traffic lights have this invisible barrier to block cars from moving whenever they turn red.. I just dont understand why all cars stop when the light turns red.. SO powerful?

- I thought cats are female and dogs are male.. they make out and make more cats and dogs..

- I used to thought that Malaysia is the world! The sky seems to end at certain point and if I were to ask papa to drive me till the end of Malaysia, I can touch the bottom of the sky.. Yeepee!

- I wished Santa Claus was real coz papa mama can't afford the toys I wanted so much..

- I always worried that the sun, moon and stars will drop on me one day.. coz.. there's nothing attached to them and they are just floating..

- I always picture heaven to be somewhere super fun.. with loads of sinful food for you to eat and tonnes of toys for u to play..

- I really thought DORAEMON was real at one point! And hoped that he will come out from any drawers in my house and lend me all those cool gadgets..

- I seriously think that POWER RANGERS and ULTRAMAN are real too.. And just dont understand why those monsters only attack this place call USA and Japan only.. why they never appear in malaysia and say hi to me.. coz i really wanna meet Power Rangers..

Ya, those are just some of the stupid naive things I thought way back then.. Laugh la.. laugh!!

p/s: I will be going to ABU DHABI again next month.. this is gonna be my 3rd time man!!! wahaha... maybe i should just find a rich man there to date.. since I go there so often.. and its always 6-8 days stay.. JUST KIDDING!!! I like pure klang meat ok!!!

Tuesday, February 10, 2009

CNY gone.. just a blink of an eye..

Yet another sleepless night in Singapore again.. Ever since I step into Singapore, I have no idea how many sleepless nights I had already.. Totally lost count.. From doing my laundry, cook a bowl of noodles to feed my hunger, dancing alone in the living hall like there's no tomorrow, to watching 'Everybody loves Raymond'- Season 1.. until now.. 4.59am.. I still can't sleep.. Darn...

Time really flies.. One moment I was all EMO in San Francisco alone because I wasn't able to celebrate Christmas with my family back in klang like I always do.. Another moment.. 15 days of CNY have ended.. for Hokkien people, it ended on the 9th day.. even shorter..

I managed to 'sneak' back home after my Amsterdam flight during CNY for 3 short days to spend time with my family and friends. I really had a great time and certain things came up much better than what I've expected.. Sorry to most of my friends that I wasn't able to meet during that time.. will make it up to you in my future trips! (IVY, yes, you are one of them!!)

Here are some camwhore pics that me and my best-est Buddies took in my house.. Mind you, i've never been such a poser in my life before.. all for their sake! hahaha.. I treasure these pics so much that I feel I just need to leave them in my blog for memory purpose..

1st pic of the day.. not so good as we were just warming up..
From left: Yong Hong in blue, Hui Fung in orange (she claims to be orang-y pink), Mua in black and white and Sau Kin- My best friend in yellow..

Then we got high.. we did 2nd shot.. then 3rd.. then 4th..

We changed location.. and theme.. Salsa style..

Then we get comfy with the sofa.. And they said my foot spoil the whole pic.. I think its unique!

Then I put my feet on solid ground..

Trying to be serious, imitating some TVB drama featuring loads of superstars..

But still fail.. Hui Fung claims that she looks ugly on pics if she doesn't smile.. So, she insists must smile!! Then we give up...
It was an awesome time we had! Its been a long time since 4 of us actually came out and talk and just do crazy things together!! I've never realise how much I miss them till all of them left my house for respective dinners with family.. Hui Fung, Yong hong, Sau kin, if you guys are reading this, pls do meet up as much as possible with me ya!!!!! Love you guys!!!

p/s: Valentine is coming.. I still hate the fact that this day is so over-commercialised and what's the big deal about it?????????????????? Do you know that flowers and chocolates and dinners actually cost more than twice on that day compared to normal days? ITS RIDICULOUS!!! Couples alert, RECESSION IS HITTING EVERY INCH OF THE EARTH HARD!!!

Wednesday, January 14, 2009

Rangitata: River from the sky

So many trips to update, so many pics to upload yet so little time and so lazy I am..

Dear Blog of mine, I just came back from Christchurch. New Zealand and it was a blast!!! I wished I could stay there longer and that I had more money.. hahaha...

The first day when I touched down, I went crazy in the local hypermart.. One of the crew brought me there and some of their things are really cheap compared to buying them in Singapore or Malaysia..
Part of the reason I went crazy was this also..
I've never seen a brand with my name on it.. Can u see it? PAM'S!!!
I was so happy and excited, I bought so many boxes of energy bars just because they have my name on it...
These are just part of the things I bought and seriously, the energy bars there are super cheap!! I would buy more of them next time if I have the chance to go there again!
These are the PRODUCTS that I have bought on that day! I even bought their MILO as according to my friend, their milo tasted different compared to our local ones.. I bought 2 packets, 1 for me, another 1 for my family to try..

On the 2nd day, which is the BESTEST part, me and 3 other crews went for water rafting!!! 4 of us are all females!! Girl power man!!

A bus came to the hotel to pick us up.. and we were suppose to go to this this river called Rangitata which means River from the Sky.. I liked the sound of it.. Rangitata..

From the heart of Christchurch to Rangitata, it took us about 2 and a half hour to reach there..

So, I decided to took some pictures because I was too excited and I can't rest at all in the bus!!
The one beside me is Emily, she's from Malaysia too.. and dont be deceived by her baby look.. she's not as young as she looks.. Good maintainance.. We talked throughout the way and she's super nice..
Some pictures that I took from the bus when we were travelling.. The scenery of Christchurch is so beautiful that it took my breath away! Have you seen so many cows in your life? I've never!!! MOo MOo..
The river is so clean that I just feel like drinking it.. Hardly see blue water river in most parts of the world nowadays and NZ still have them!
Grass so green sky so blue.. Nature.. Gods creation!!

After 2 and a half long hours of bus ride, we finally reached the Rangitata Water Raft house!
And I spotted this unique chair..
So cute that me and emily nearly wanna steal it.. but its impossible to take it back to Singapore..
I walked around the house while the rest were having light lunch.. I love the view..
This is the Water Raft house which accepts tourists to stay in before the activity.. But I'm not sure of the price though.. There were more than 20 people altogether that day that joined the water rafting!
One of the guide briefed us through how to 'dress' up for our activity of the day.. So many layers!! First we have to wear wet suit, then a long sleeve thermal, then red jacket and life jacket.. Oh, not forgetting the helmet and also wet shoe.. He's really funny but I was having quite a tough time trying to catch his slang..
The 4 us half 'dressed' up! The thermal is '1 size fits all'.. that's why we looked so shabby.. From left: Me, Emily, Qian Hwei and Kimberly..
One of the guides took the opportunity to take picture with us.. hahaha.. he has very nice blue eyes..
After some cam-whore and last briefing.. we were sent by bus again to the river.. On our way, we saw so many BAa BAas...
SHEEPS!! SO CUTE!! They have big butts and when they run they looked so cute!!!
Breathtaking view.. I can't breath!
According to the guides, usually the river is brown in colour during this time of the year and it was just few days ago that the water became clean! I guess we were really blessed to have such clear water to raft on!
This is Rangitata!
My team-mates of the day.. Kimberly, Qian Hwei, Emily, ME, our faithful funny guide- Cam, Gamma and Steve..
All excited and pumped up for rafting!!! WEEEEEEEE....
Before the thrill begans.. still water.. (mind you, these pictures were taken by one of the guide and it cost us 40NZ dollar to have the cd of our pictures..)
Then, it warms up slowly.. Rapids Grade 1, Grade 2 then Grade 5! (In water rafting, Grade 5 is the most dangerous rapid but its considered the most exciting..)
Row row, row your boat ROUGHLY down the stream..
THis was taken when we were on RAPID 5.. as you can see.. we looked like we are swallowed by the water.. but dont worry.. we weren't.. But it was very very SYIOK!!! I have never encounter a grade 5 rapid.. my adrenalin was up to my maximum point man!!!!
Can you spot me?
After 2 grade 5 rapids.. the river started to calm down abit.. but there were more to come.. just no grade 5s anymore.. *sad*
The power of nature.. We can never fight nature.. the water was so powerful we can hardly control our raft..
Fear of too little pictures taken of us, we tried to get the attention of the camera man.. and we succeed!!
One of the guide briefing us on the safe way to jump of the cliff.. Not suicide k..
Me jumping off the cliff.. my heart was pumping real hard.. the cliff was quite high and pls dont tell my parents I did this k.. they will kill me.. hahahaha..
*splash* and I drank like 1 litre of water.. *burp*
We were talking about our lives on the raft.. Gamma is a teacher and Steve is from UK..
this is what we called 'tako-wrap' where the raft just folded like tat.. squeezing all of us in the middle.. very fun!! Something new to me...
Grade 3 rapid.. instead of fear, we were happy.. call us insane nut case..
We thought we did not get enough attention from the photographer, so we waved again..
As the water became still.. we know our journey was almost ending..
And we have to say goodbye to Rangitata..
After our awesome rafting, we went back to the house and washed up.. There were no seperate shower rooms for us but 1 big room with 4 shower poles for the women.. We were abit shy to go naked in front of the Caucasion ladies and we just briefly rinse ourselves with our wet suit on.. but, the most of the caucasion ladies just stripped themselves and showered like theres no tomorrow.. I had a serious culture shock!! I've never seen a naked adult lady in my life!!!
AND WHEN I SAY NAKED MEANS NO CLOTHES OR EVEN A NECKLACE ON!!
Tired and hungry, we took a picture on how shag we looked before proceeding for our lunch..
WE ARE STEW-Ardess..
Lunch with the nature by your side.. something you can hardly do in Singapore..
You can even sit on the grass and enjoy the sun while eating your sandwich.. In malaysia, sure got ants attack your butt!
The tiny little kitchen that brought us not enough food to fill the hungry wolves! I was still hungry after the so called lunch.. the only bad thing bout this whole trip was, the food is so little..
Something I spotted in the house..
Memories..
A group picture before we head home..
Always young at heart.. I wonder when I can go back there again..
Overall, I really had a great time in Christchurch although I only have 1 and a half day there.. I can't wait to go back there again and the friends I have made through this trip are just priceless..
The whole water rafting trip cost me 195 NZ dollar and they are only open from September to May as they will close for winter.. If you ever have the chance to go Christchurch and wants to do some water rafting, you may go to their website to check it out.. www.rafts.co.nz.. The guides are friendly and the whole experience is just awesome!!!
To end this post, my dear blog, I have something to share with you which I spotted in one of the 24-hour mart near the hotel I stayed:

LOL!!!

p/s: Due to work related issue, I wont be able to go back for CNY.. *sob sob* Missed Christmas with family last year and now CNY!!! But will be back in klang on 1st feb k!!! Pls meet me!!!!