Christmas is coming.. As everybody is aware...
Especially when you are living in this tiny little island called Singapore where Christmas is like the 'IT' thing for the islanders to celebrate.. Malaysians are well-aware that if you do not have money to go to Europe to feel Christmas, then Singapore is the best and cheapest and nearest option you can go to.. However, this might not be a good thing for certain type of people.. Those moody, home-sick, lonely girls where all they wish for this christmas is to be with their family..I have no complains about my job.. I think I kindda like my job.. ALOT.. I get to travel, I get to see loads of things where most people are not able to at my age.. The working time is pretty short and I get off days after every trip! But, there's always something you have to sacrifice in order to get certain 'Luxury'.. Just like some people I know, they sacrifice good food outstation in order to buy a 'LV' at the end of the month.. They sacrifice the luxury of taking taxi to work in order to save money to be spent outstation.. As for me, I sacrifice too much of the time with my family and friends to have this job.. I know this job pays me fairly well compared to most jobs I will get back in Malaysia but I miss home.. I miss going back to my REAL home sweet home after my work and just sit down and relax with my family in the living hall watching 'The Nanny'.. I miss mummy calling me and telling me what she's going to cook for dinner in order to tempt me not to go out with my friends at night.. I miss daddy's sarcastic humour everytime we chat while we watch tv.. I miss those small little chats every night before sleep with my 2 dearest sisters.. AND.. I miss all those random calls and sms-es where my friends will just ask me out for a mamak..
As we get closer to Christmas.. I miss home even more.. This will be the first time I'm so far away from HOME for the most important event in the SOO family of the year.. Christmas meant so much to me.. Its more than going to church to celebrate Jesus' birth, its more than singing Christmas Carols... Its the together-ness with your love ones.. I'm assigned to fly to Korea then to San francisco starting from Christmas Eve.. Many told me to look to the brighter side as I will experience a total different Christmas this year and I get to shop till I drop at the streets of San Francisco on Boxing day.. Guess theres always the bright side and a dark side of everything.. A senior once told me, once you decided to step into this line, be ready to be away from your family during BIG events.. its normal.. But the good news is.. My family will be down to celebrate a very early Birthday and Christmas with me next weekend after I come back from Amsterdam!! WEEE.....
Oh man.. I'm feeling so lonely.. I have an off day on my Birthday itself but what to do? I hope I get to meet Canna as she will be in singapore that time.. All I want for my birthday is NOT TO BE LONELY.. For the record, I'm not desperate for a boyfriend, I just want friends to be around.. I tend to get too EMO when I'm alone during my big day.. Getting older and all alone.. how sad........
p/s: I'll be going Amsterdam, Netherland next tuesday.. I checked the weather forecast, and it is like -1 degree celsius!!! I dont know whether I can stand the cold or not.. I'm not a cold person.. I'm a hot person!!!!
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It was good to see you again in church for that 5 mins the other day. Though I don't do it often, I steal time to read your blog every now and then. It's good to read about your journeys, hope everything's fine at your end of the world :)
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